Out of Sudden
Thursday, December 18, 2008
Why this post is being titled "Out of Sudden"?
I have been thinking.. and..
out of sudden, I hate myself.
I mean, for being who I am.
For being for vulgar ad many other things.
Out of Sudden, I think I have not done much of my part as a Student Councillor (V.P)
"what have I done?" Maybe, I need constant reminders and answers.
But the main point is...
Out of Sudden, I miss Choir.
I miss the time we spent together to chat
I miss the time we spent our time to do warm ups
I miss the excited and nervous feelings that all of us had felt during the audition
I miss the time where all of us gave each other supports before we went in for audition.
Will we have another chance to watch a choir concert together again?
Will we have another chance to perform either in school or outside?
Will we have another chance to sit around in a circle and chat anything under the sun like what we used to do during the breaks?
Or maybe.. I should use the word.. Will "I" have the chance..
I know it's...
It's.. Impossible..
As I had made a decision to stay in Percussion at that time.
If I were to stay in Choir.. Will I regret?
I'm not regret for choosing Percussion instead of Choir.
Cause I love both.
& I really love both.
If, I'm given another chance to make a decision again.
I think, I will still be "stuck down there".
it's like making a choice to either, kill your parents or kill your children.
I bet no one understands how I felt.
I just happened to see some Choir performaces by the RJC at esplanade today.
& the cut just went deeper.
Changed on the 12th of December 2008