'I see the glass half empty even when it's full'- Ryan higaniga

That's exactly what I'm feeling now. Like what i have posted on facebook earlier on, think most of you now know that I dread to go work now. Just to make things clearer, nope, I don't sulk when I'm serving my customers/guests as I never allow personal feelings or emotions to affect my work performance. In fact, as mentioned above, I really put on a smile when I served. & at the end of the day my cheeks muscles ached. (well, that proved that I really SMILE)

Despite i got to know more and more regular staffs there, it was still difficult for me to 'get in' and bond with them as they already have their own clique. Further more, as an introvert, it was really and always a challenge to approach them and start a conversation.

Oh talking about starting a conversation, one of the regular staff approached me and asked if I could just smile and don't be so serious/sulky. I believe that really took him A LOT OF COURAGE just to say that sentence cause I know myself that when I don't smile, I look extremely fierce and unapproachable/unfriendly.

(WL, I thought I will feel better after posting, but I still feel very very very pessimistic!) HELP!