JC people are different. They are cunning and scary..
I've heard stories about JC people before I entered and embarked on my JC adventures.

I am just doing some self-reflection while flipping through the dictionary checking up vocabulary that I don't know. 'This, shall not be known to my friends, my classmates.' I can see and feel this imaginary boundary between them and I when comes to English. All of them have distinctions for their language. & I only have B4 (on a brighter note, I am truly happy because I finally proved to myself and that irritating English teacher of mine that I CAN MAKE IT within a short span of 3 months. Furthermore, I would like to take this opportunity to thank Miss Kerry Lim, whom stayed back during night study, teaching and guiding Ivy and I...SHE IS AWESOME)

I can still remember that on the first day of CT, Mr J.Ng asked if we can ignored how others look at us. I remembered I am one of those few raising up our hands and said, I can. Never did i know that I will change my decision... and realised how unprepared I was...

3-5 months has passed. I can't help but eager to know and care how others look at me. I am fear of rejections. I want friends (do i?) I want to remind myself that this journey hasn't been an easy one. People thought that I couldn't make it. They thought without Amath, it's impossible for me to take H2 math, they thought I will not be able to pass it. Classmates.. actually feel that with me around, they can be assured that they will not be the one with the lowest marks.

I am not afraid of fears.
I am fear of not given the opportunity to do what I want to do.
Now.. I am fear of facing myself.. my feelings.

What should I do now?